So I dont have much battery on the computer so I will keep this fast.

Today I woke up thinking that I was back in Sweden. I could talk to ppl and stuff. It would be nice. Why cant Sweden come to Bkk. Bkk is just great. I just wanna talk swedish with someone who knows me and understands me.

Yesterday I had a little breakdown and I wrote this but I didnt get to publishing it.

" I am still not getting it. Im just saying what they what me to say and not knowing what I am saying. People are sighing and rolling their eyes. Like that's gonna make it easier?!
Today camre the breakdown I was expecting and fearing. In class the tears came and wouldn't stop falling. I've been sucking up for a week now and its been though. I just want it to fall in to my head like english did. Why wont it? I was seriously ready to drop out. Enough! I wanna go home. I dont care if home is Sweden or were ever. I just want out. It dont matter if I drop out or not, I will still be in debt and have to pay back all them damn money at once. Im screwed.

Oh and just as a totally unrelated "fun" fact:
While I was in the bathroom trying to suck it up once again, I realized that bulimia can not be something wierd here. People came and put their fingers down their throught as it was natural :o Hmm..? "