Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck!

(sorry for the language grandma')

But I think that this calls for those words. I dont think I can last this long in school. I think that the decision is already made. Even though I don't what it to be made. And I go through it and change it every time something changes. Damn it! That means I have to leave everything I have here. I dont have much, but I'm happy. I feel like I am were I should be, it just feels like I've always been here. Like this is home.

I don't wannaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

But I dont have a choise really. cause its really hard to get a job here, and absolutly for me how don't speak thai. I'll look in to it.

But this I know for sure, I will be back BKK. I love you!

But today Maya and I went to Baiyoke Sky Hotel and went to the top floor to see the view. While looking out over BKK I just had a warm fuzzy feeling, and I couldn't help smiling. I did this, I am here! This is, without a doubt the best thing that I have done in my life. The view was so beautiful and I ended up feeling more inlove with this city then any other. This beats the Empire State Building by tons! I never wanna leave this.

Pics will be arriving, I promise, but I forgot my camera so Maya has all of the pics :) Here are one from my phone though :)