Yesterday became a sucky day in the evening when I found a e-mail from Chompoo. She explained to me, what I had been fearing, that no matter if I take the course I told you about I wouldn't be able to work in TH. Not in a good position anyways. So what's a girl to do? She thinks I should go to a higher edu like Uni or something. But Sofie and School ain't no good match, you know... So right now... I don't know how to get my life in to order. Maybe it's like people (seem to be) thinks, that this whole thing about moving abroad is just a dream that won't be coming true. But I don't know. This just breaks my heart, it truely does.
And it's like, what am I good for? What can I do? What will I do? Will I just be a total failiure who ends up with a crappy job for the rest of her life? Will I really be forced to stay in Sweden now? What will happen to me?
I guess I'll just keep applying for jobs and maybe I'll end up getting something? If there is a God or Gods or wtf-ever maybe I can be given a break sooner or later...? Right?
Like I said on my FB status...
In a major set back, that changes both life and dreams, I think one is entitled to complain, whine, cry, moan and dwell. As long as one picks herself up again, right?
1 comment:
Geewizz girl. You're still so young, why are you in such a haste? Give yourself a break! You can succeed and you can do whatever you dream of doing, but it won't come to you in a blink of an eye. Just don't give up on your dreams, believe in yourself. Give yourself some creds for at least having goals and dreams and wanting to achieve them. Keep on fighting, be strong.
And hey, remember: Nothing worth having comes easy.
Best of luck to ya' and take care!
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