School is getting harder and harder, but it's worth it...
I just feel draind of power.

And last Friday I was out and it turns out I was supposivly druged. Never take a drink offered by strangers. How nice they may seem. Any how... I am fine after a weekend feeling sick and friday night throughing up. The doctor at the hospital said I was lucky, since I threw up so much on friday night I may have gotten most of it out that way. But its Monday now and I am still feeling a bit so-so. But I'm good. I am a fighter, have always been and intend to keep on that way.
God, I feel so bad. Bad because I got everybody so worried about me, mainly to my host parents. Their still pretty shook up(and angry at EF cause they can't get a frickin' hold of the people they need to talk to about this and that they haven been given an emergency number to call. I guess the school doesn't care... Seems like it - dosen't it?). And embarresed - I mean, it feels like I am always so reaponsible and I let this happen to me. It sucks.


In 5 weeks I will be in Sweden, waiting to take th CAE test. And worrying about the future. Okay, I am starting to stress about that now, but my parents has tried to convince me that I can worry anout that later... I am not sure. I need a plan. Well... I need to focus on now of my 200 plans.
Sigh.



I miss my grandma'...